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This is why you wait for the day to end before you post on your blog.

This is also why you don't wait.

I wake up. I eat breakfast. I get changed. I brush my teeth. I blah blah blah, who cares right? I'll get to the point. Today is Wednesday, which is the day we normally have rounders matches. I was excited. I wanted to get on with it. I wanted to.. win. I wanted to win all season. I was too optimistic..

No one else can bowl. I can't bowl. But the only person that puts themselves up for it is me. So I have to do it. And I love it. I love being captain, I love leading the warm ups, I love having the responsibility, I love saying 'Three cheers for ... hip hip hooray, hip hip hooray, hip hip hooray, and two more for excellent play, hip hip hooray, hip hip hooray'. I love the fact that I made up the extra hooray at the end. But there is so much pressure, which is the only part I hate. But I never notice it.. no, make that noticed it. I noticed it today.

Our teacher was umpiring the under tens. I gave five no balls, which was one rounder given away to the other team.. that's very good for me. For me. The my friend's mum comes up to say something. Our teacher said, 'oh, Mrs. ..., how were they?' my friend's mum said 'oh, well, we lost a lot of points from no balls.' One rounder? Oh well.. so then I got a whole croud of people saying I needed to calm down. Which, of course, me being me, made me less calm. So, I started bowling.. and ruining our game.

'No ball no ball no ball no ball no ball no ball'. Was all I heard. People were saying 'Come on Serena!' when I was about to let go of the ball which was annoying, and I could barely see because I'm sure we were down my twenty because of my no balls. I could barely see because I was crying. Short sightedness and crying.. not good. So then the innings were over. RELIEF. And more tears.. lots more. Engulfment of people. 'Oh it's okay' 'Don't worry' and all that.. that was enough to make me feel a bit better. I have friends which I didn't know I had. I was hyperventilating. It was hell on earth. Oh well, I'm still alive. It's all over..

xoxo